Club Brown

You know I realized something last night while setting at Wendy’s (eating fresh never frozen but harvested from at least 30 different cows). I am somewhat of a consumer. I like to think of my self as above TV and MTV and Wal-Mart and fast food. But I am not. Yeah so I like target and I eat more Chili’s than McDees. That doesn’t mean a thing really Chili’s is the new McDonalds. I find myself wanting a Big old Chevy Tahoe, Gas prices and fit it in the garage ease of operation be damned I just want it and I want it lowered with big solid black wheels. I don’t want to listen to fresh not even released yet indie what ever give me some Snoop Dogg and a bag of Flamin’ hot cheetos con Limon and leave alone, to watch my Food Network( I love the SNL skit that called it Porn for Fat people).
It goes back to the longing to be cool. I try way too hard. And really what makes a person cool is not what they do or how they are it is that they never seem to be trying to hard they put the shirt on and they wear it with out a second thought It is not that thy are trying to be cool they just ARE cool.
I almost lost it this morning. The annual “cowboy breakfast” is at Auditorium shores a bock from my building across the Lower Colorado River that right in town they call Lady Bird Lake not after the Late Lady Bird Johnson. Traffic was a NIGHTMARE. I mean it is always bad but this morning was hellish. I was frustrated. That and it just seems like people are falling apart right in front of me. not every one some get a certain sick pleasure and are always falling apart when every one else is fine, then when the tables turn, well they do just that they turn and all of the sudden the terminally “down” perk up and think they really are going to sick with this one.
So if you are falling a apart know this, it will smooth out it is the way of the world. It has to, the tide will go out and the sun will come back out and we can have a cigar and say it is because we are celebrating something generic but really we are celebrating that you are not Blue or celebrating the fact that the girl turned out to be another in a long line of Psychos and you have told her that it was just for the sex and if she is not cool with that she can pack her things and leave the way she moved in. Our mouths will tingle from the Tobacco in our lips