You know that serenity prayer? “God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will; That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next.
Amen. –Reinhold Niebuhr

Remember that? Or maybe I just get more random prayer request emails thank you because it is supposed that my karma is as pure and honest as smooth and creamy processed cheese. Any way I was thinking about that to day, no the whole deal about living one day at a time and all that non-sense, but “the accept what I can’t change” and “courage to change things that are well with in my control”. And really in life that is more what I need than anything. I am afraid to the most retarded most insignificant things. We need to spray the house for ants and spiders and that has me freaking out. I don’t want the baby to breathe anything that will harm her, but want to not have a spider bite her. what to do ? what to do?

I feel so scattered some times and so hyper stressed I have been looking at was to better focus and calm my nerves. I thought about smoking but then there’s the smell and cancer yeah yeah. Some hippie at work suggested Pot but then there is the smell and the cops and the cost and the jail time and yeah it is just not worth it. I pray for the serenity but I feel as if I am George Costanza’s father yelling “SERENITY NOW” and it is not working. The question is; is there a time when I can pray for something having little or no faith and that be OK? I can’t find where it is. Faith is the key ingredient and if you are low on faith you are s-o-l. This feeling makes me think what is the use? I am a rat, in a cage, a hamster on my wheel, a dog on the track chasing the ever elusive rabbit, around and around.
And though I know I know that I know I really do have a hope (and not just the Brand that is ever so popular by Barak Obama’s t-shirts.) I wish I could turn my hope into faith. I need to turn my futures trading into cold hard coin.

The Chicago Defender endorses Jesse Jackson for Barack Obama’s Senate seat. Jesse Jackson, in turn, accused them of “acting White” and informed them they’d have their balls cut off. [Chicago Defender]

The only time i will ever post anything from FOX news on my blog. i thought this was funny though.
I love it. Remember this one?

You know that person that complains all the time?
I mean just constantly.
There is this man at my office that has a good life as far as I can tell. His kids are both in college ha and his wife just sold their house and moved to a brand new high-rise condo down town, he has no hair and maybe that is what he is so on about but heck he drives a Porsche that would counteract hair. He is married to a pretty lady and everything but yea the complaining will drive you nuts.
Ok so, I was just in the John, (some of you already know where this is going and my loathing for conversation and smart phone use and news paper reading, all fine if your at home but at work in a public place COME ON) so he is in the bathroom doing what we all do, and the sounds coming from his cell block were so frustrated. I wanted to ask if he was aggravated at his own body, and then he seemed to b very disappointed. The noises coming from his cell, just the un-spoken words were all that of complete disapproval.
I thought man lighten up.

i woke up this morning and my arms were completely numb. The radio was playing npr’s semi annual beg-a-thon and my cell phone alarm was going off. I have this alarm sound that sounds like a Israeli bombing raid warning siren. I was having a tough time getting the alarm snoozed. i finally got up and when I stood my head felt as if it had been hit on both sides simultaneously with two 4 x 6’s. Like two major league baseball players batter batter batter … swing swang swung and connected at the same instant. I almost fell down it hurt so bad. It was 6.30 and time to get my butt out of bed but I could not. I dove back because once standing I realized I can’t feel my legs they are numb from my waist down; as are my arms.
That is how I have started this morning. Then I sat in traffic for a solid hour and arrived to work about and hour and a half later than what i like.
it is going to be a great Wednesday.
Little got her shots yesterday and although I was leaning away from giving her the shots altogether or at least until she is 5. So pray none of the horror stories people tell you about vaccinations pan here.
She did ok with the shot, just kind of fussy and wanting to be held. But hey from what I can tell that is most of the time. I know I would be! Have you seen her momma?

went home, and had a wonderful weekend. the baby sat in the sink, got spoiled out of her mind and held 98% of the time.

Jade and here Grandpa, Jade and her Aunt Dara

Jade in Mongas Sink

Mom learns the complexities of the iPhone camera. Yes the picture will take when you push that button!

dad gave me some awsome custom made vintage anteater boots. they fitlike a glove. and i got to hang out with PaPa and Jake and played the longest game of washers in thd history of mankind. it was a good good weekend. i miss home. I miss my people. Suck it up daine.

OK not since like two months ago when mine was born have i held such an angel. I am sure this is the only like the time I’ll be able to say oh ‘he is just precious’ and get away with it.

7 lbs even and the makings of red hair with the creamiest sweet complextion. Jade went too and was all mad when we had to leave. Or maybe that is why we left.

well i cant believe it but it is finally happening. Our friends and Neighbors and countrymen Justin and Amanda are in the Hospital working on Chase their little man. we were all kind of in this pregnant boat together so it will be cool to finally meet this little guy.

We have been doing everything in our power to persuade him out.

Jade cried all evening last night to get him here and wore herself out she went out at 10.30pm after i gave her a bath and slept until 6.30am.

We have eaten Pepperoni Pizza and yesterday evening with perfect fall south Texas weather we went on a little ride around their ranch looking at these animals more commonly seen in Africa riding on an old unimog Mercedes, stinking cool truck but bouncy. about half way through i looked back at Amanda and said maybe the bumps will help the little man come out.

So Chase isnt here yet but cant be long now.

Man I am getting tired of politics and Banks failing and my stock being in the dump. I am ready for Obama to be President and end poverty and hunger in the world. I know that would make him the Anitchrist. With hunger and poverty gone though every one is happy and my stock will bounce to where I am not loosing my pants on it so I can sell and pay a little faith pledge I made in so very little faith.
So I have a love hate relationship with email right now.
I love getting stuff from loved ones but I only lie like It when I comes to me and not to over say 10 or 20 others. You know what I am talking about these political emails. I know I should care but like I said earlier I am over saturated and I no longer think it matters one way or the other. I have friends from both persuasions saying ooh this one is an important election.
I want to respond with “they are all important and nothing really ever changes.” Yeah one guys is better at this than the other and the other had more experience in like 4 extra thing and this year one is old and one is a few years older than my self, but I still don’t think that is going to matter long term.
So when I get these political emails I always say something mean in my head that changes them around and makes life more entertaining for me.  This morning’s was a personal message from Dr James Dobson of Focus on the family fame. “This week, Dr. Dobson delivered an extremely important radio message in which he outlined the specific reasons why he now supports Senator John McCain in the upcoming presidential election.”
Then I insert number one
He has a hot wife and he is old so when he kicks the bucket I am going to the funeral with a bottle of bubbly on ice some redi-whip some strawberries and a Barry White CD.

Ok hope your weekend is off to a good start. my started with my uvula 3x its normal size.