OK so I am playing catch up big time
At work and at home and at church (my other other job) and for all of you out there in blog-i-o-land.

So Wednesday night when I was wanting to be in a better more beachy place, we had the baby. That’s right we MexiMelt and I took the bun out of her oven.
And for all the cliché sayings that people say that I usually hate I swear I cant help it I love that little tiny person more than anything she has in the short 6 days she has been here, moved me to tears given me something to talk about, made me rethink everything from why I am alive to why I volunteer to how safe the house is in our neighbor hood. I have randomly talked to strangers with children in the grocery and walked rather menacingly and threateningly towards guys who looked like they needed it. I am different and I love my baby girl.
So I have all of that on my plate and I have this huge crash in my MINI, so I am dealing with the insurance and I swear I have had no trouble with GEICO until now and let me tell you, it is not about the cheapest payment it isn’t. it is the customer service. When you crash your prize possession and you inconvenienced by the whole thing already it boils my blood to have a blow hard ass of an adjuster call me and tell me that he might need me to pick up the tab getting my car towed to the repair shop. What an ASS. I wanted to jump through the phone at him.  Told him I am getting the car fixed at the Mini Dealer because they will fix it correctly, the closest dealer San Antonio. “Well I don’t know if we can do that” I said “oh we’ll do it alright, I take it there for everything including oil changes, that is where it is going.” I can’t stand it when people think they can push me around into what they want. Arrrgh

So it is like I have eaten garlic pizza and then I am surprised by a birthday cake and I love the cake so much and the party is great and then I belch garlic. I am still loving this cake but the garlic dear God it is strong.

Getting gifts is the hardest thing to do. I can give them all day long. Gifts of money hard earned and time and attention and listening ear and what ever you need I can dish it out. But Man oh Man I have a hard time getting stuff.
We just had a baby shower yesterday and so many people bought us the coolest things ever and I am so thankful for it all. I tried to thank every one and let them know how really grateful I am, we are, for all of the things. I critique my self I say think you and then I think oh that didn’t sound sincere enough because I really am thankful.
Pet peeve of mine and there are more and more as I age, but a big pet peeve is when some one Thanks insincerely. I have a friend I help ALL THE TIME and he used to say thank you like it was something he was required to say and I would get so pissed off. I was like man you could care less, you really could. One of these days I wanna just not show up when you need me and leave you butt high and dry and then we’ll see yeah huh? Then we’ll really know what’s up. But then I am glad this rant just went on in my head and didn’t come out my mouth. I tell my self yeah see on some twisted level you are doing what you do for you Daine. It has nothing to do with helping others really. You are sick and twisted and the only way to love your self is through personal sacrifice.
My friend has gotten better at sounding like he means it when he thanks me.  But it s still a peeve of mine, and I wanted to make sure I did not sound like a spoiled child being asked what I wanted for supper. I think this is the main reason it is hard to get gifts. That and I know how much all this crap costs. I scanned every thin on the list and I am like seriously don’t spend money, gas is too expensive and you’ll gonna need it. I thought about what I scanned on the registry too. What do I scan? What do I scan? I should only scan the things we really need. Not exaggerated and or expensive gadgets and yes where have you been under a rock? They have ALL KINDS of expensive gadgets for babies these days. Not necessarily for babies but for their parents. So I tried not to go to far over board and stuff but still felt like I was overdoing it by the end. I keep saying to my self “no the baby does not need this thing (what ever it is). Will the baby die if it does not have this thing? No. and all the millions of babies in the world have lived with out it, she’ll be fine.

This kind of thing in addition to all the regular pre parenthood anxiety are what make these dark circles and bags under my eyes.
A lady at work today said wow you look like you have a good weekend. I said um what do you mean? She said dear have you seen your face.
I was thinking to my self was I smiling too much, I mean my parents are in tow n and we did see Betty and Matt on their move over the weekend but that was pretty sedate. She said No you just look tired, you look like you have been hit with a Mack truck.
I wanted to punch her in the front teeth but I just buried it and went on to my office with my coffee, thinking I will leverage the contents of this cup in my favor, he he he.

Well it is official. I am going to be a dad, sometime around Sept. the 4th. Cross your fingers that that whole reap what you sow bit is a lie!