man ok today is a hard one. i wanna teleport myself to Singapore and slap the spit out of my counterparts mouth.  Smiles

So how Ya’ll doing? things in Austin are great what it is like the 38th day in a row over 100 degrees and near 80% or better humidity wise. Translation; it is hot.

So i went to Lamaze class and i seriously think it is a complete waste of 80 bucks. i mean that is the difference between the Apple Airport express and the Airport extreme the two of witch i am debating on. So if you have an opinion of the two let me hear it at the sound of the chime. *Chime*

I mean i like the extreme. It has a security slot! but that is not why I swear that is not why.

wow all that apple white. i wish it were all a pleasing brown.

oh speaking of which. I had to erase my white board at work that had possible names to pair with Jade Barraza – Branham, and now it just has my business up there. name suggestions to proceed Jade Barraza -Branham after the chime. *chime*

Speaking of which i like calling my ‘you know,’ business my ‘business’ like i am going to go into this door with the outline of a man on it to take care of my or some business. It makes it funnier to say ‘yeah oh i had to put some business on the white board.’ no i did not apply it from across the room with a nice arch.

Ok moving on i know i am 13 and you are still reading my ‘business’ see isn’t that fun?

and in closing id like to point out that i could loose massive amounts of weight if i could top drinking coke.

Coke,the red can kind is addictive a the other and i am an addict. No but i have like a Month and a few days before the peanut pops out of the sundry places, and i need to drop like oh 50 pounds. shoot for the stars and land on the moon. such defeatist sloganology but it is what we are going to go with here anyway. Cause if you aint first yer last’.

wow what a waste of time your thinking and i am sorry but that is what the lord gave me. David Tucker once said eat the meat and spit out the bones.

Ya’ll know me I am brown as they come. I have a statue of the Virgin Mary in my front yard, and an car I can’t afford, I have a couple of junked cars sitting there too. I am driven like the next brown man, but what you do with your money is your business. That said, if you sign the papers on a new place and then you can pay for it, and you let it slide back to the man who’s fault is this?  I heard this deal on NPR this morning.

They are calling this reverse redlining. Redlining was supposedly discrimination against minorities not giving us loans. Now the city of Baltimore is trying to sue Wells Fargo for reverse redlining, giving loans to minorities they knew could not afford it. Wells Fargo claims there was no foul play and i belive them. I had to jump hard to get throught the house buying hoops and i have ok crdit scores. The law suit is tying to get Wells Fargo to eat this and let people off the hook bascially. DUMB, and not really fair. I guess what pisses me off is how people never learn. And I don’t think they ever will if you just give hand outs for the sake of one being black or brown. It is the same deal when privileged parents continuously bail their children out of every incarceration. i have a relative that has done this his whole life. I would not trust this guy to go get me a McDonald’s double cheeseburger. He’d mess it up.

Now we have a law suit because the advertising worked and people bought houses they could not afford in the long run. They say the advertising was targeted. Well yeah, what advertising have you seen lately that was not custom to the channel you were watching. It is just stupid.
Listen to this story before you comment. Equality? my ass.

Fear drives human behavior, in one form or another. Afraid they would loose control, they scared me into doing as they wished. They leveraged their words with bible text. If I did not honor or do as they said, hell was mine to suffer. Growing up I was less of a deviant than I would have otherwise been for fear of what Damien would call accidental babies.
– Side note. If you ever get a chance to see him live, do it. Trust me, and take your girl! –
I would sell the Mini and buy a big diesel 4×4 that has to live out side the garage. I would drive this beast right up the median of the interstate through the morning traffic and piss people off right and left if I wasn’t do afraid of the right to carry and fire at will. We love the second amendment the most in TEXAS. I would move to an island in the Caribbean if I was not afraid of the certain skin cancers and lack of a job.

Never thought I could be a good husband and I fear that I still am not. My fear is of failure, and the one I fear the most is Fatherhood. Every one says I will be but why can’t I trust them? I don’t look at it as “my next challenge to conquer” it will be an honor, and with this will I constantly second guess my every move? Probably so. Maybe everyone has fear like this and I don’t know it. What I want to know is how do you keep everyone from knowing? Constantly running like the news ticker scrolling across my mental screen is this reminder not to let any one down. “Keep every one smiling – Make sure most of them like you. Be nice be nice be nice.”
Some of you deal with depression. I feel bad for you. I don’t have your problem I deal with paranoia. I love the days when I never really wake up and I can go through with the topical of sleep taking the edge off my risk calculations.